if you can't stand the sight in the mirror

change the view

if you can't face the music

close your ears

 

©ormael

Everybody in his righteous mind knows when he passes the comfort zone. Most people say 'as long as it doesn't become a health issue no problem'. Which means everything is in order as long as you don't bring yourself at any risk or in any danger? So so so wrong! Sex has always been necessary to 'produce' human beings in the first place. Eons ago people lived like barbarians, women and children and even men got raped. For the sake of the lust satisfaction of another ones sickening mind. Just take what's for the taking.

Just think about that ... eons ago. Then we land in the here and now. What did we accomplish in all those years, in which people came and went again, and came back and went again? The score is just down to nothing. Everywhere around the globe children are molested by those who have to know better. Those who know when they leave the comfort zone of what can and can't be between the lines. Then again another disturbing fact is running around these days. Children become sexual aware at an age where 50 years ago they still played in sand boxes and ran around with dolls.

In the early 90's the internet was launched and the gates were set open wide. Nowadays 75% of the youngsters get their 'sex-education' from the internet, and we know who the teachers are don't we? The porn stars who make a living out of 'doing each other' in front of one or several cameras. Everything needs to be straightened out from boobs to vagina's and then some. And we get question marks in our eyes when we hear about a child or girl in her teens who was molested by a group of boys from the same age? Well let me tell you, amazement isn't my middle name any more by a long shot.

The porn industry is on its highest and society on its lowest point in history all together. So what's next? From my point of view we need to go UP instead of down. Who am I to judge? I am not! Just simple putting some facts in order. Never before was the number of children visiting shrinks and all sorts this high in amount. Our children become sick and twisted by very very filthy images of total non-reality when it comes to sex. Nowadays sex is totally disconnected from what we knew as LOVE. Love between people who want to be closer than close together. Well sex survived that's crystal clear, but where is the love?

©ormael 2011-12

 

Toto - Can't stop loving you

Reflections in my mind, thoughts I can't define
My heart is racing and the night goes on
I can almost hear a laugh, coming from your photograph
Funny how a look can share a thousand meanings
Well-intended lies, contemplating alibies
Is it really you, or is it me I'm blaming
A distant memory flashes over me
Even though you're gone, I feel you deep inside

Dance beneath the light with that look in your eyes

I can't stop loving you, time passes quickly and chances are few
I won't stop till I'm through loving you,

There's a window in a heart, I've tried to look through from the start
You're never really sure what someone else is thinking
Someone's broken something new, another altered point of view
Just a certain someone's conscience playing

I held it in my hand, I did not understand
What lives inside the wind that cries his name
Tried to catch a shooting star, what seems so close can't be that far
I'm living in a dream that's never ending

Dance beneath the light with that look in your eyes

I can't stop loving you, time passes quickly and chances are few
I won't stop till I'm through loving you,

(got a message, this was the message! don't know why, but the song is magnificent!)

'You put the light inside this man'

Never before I shared feelings that i couldn't overcome myself. To be honest I still can't deal with it altogether. A part of me is a sweet enlightened male i never met in real life, i could have but the providence decided otherwise.

Silence ... Pain ... too much to deal with. As long as you don't know all is well, but the point in time of becoming to know twists everything around. Who you were before you knew, what you felt before you knew. Desires arise, of a kind you never experienced before. Hold me please! Take me in your arms. And he did ... I felt his loving arms (wings?) around me. And every time something is up i feel him, i feel him a lot in my surroundings, as if he says, 'no worries i am around and here to stay!'

That is a very reassuring experience every time it passes, but ... the fact that i will never ever be able to feel his body warmth, that i just didn't get the chance in life to feel his embodied energy, that eats a piece of my heart away still! And sure i tell myself often enough, get over it, it is just an unreal emotion. And yes it is to be honest enough, but i can't help myself the times that i miss him, but there is nothing to be missed, for i just didn't know him. I know him now! And that is a Godgiven i will never ever be able to explain in proper words.

©ormael 2011-12

 

 

 

He who seeks the wings of an angel

will find an essence in flight never seen before!

♥